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What to do about Insomnia

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I’ve read over and over that one of the symptoms of Lyme Disease is insomnia. That hasn’t been the case with me, although if you’d asked me this between 2008 and a few months ago, I would have thought it was.

After coiling for separate tick borne illnesses, I’ve been able to parse out which infections cause which types of sleep problems for me.

  • Lyme Disease: lots of sleep, too much sleep, like 12 hours a night plus daytime naps, feeling sleepy when I’m awake, wanting lots of naps, deep sleep that seems like it was narcotic-induced, waking up feeling like I could use a nap.
  • Babesia: fatigue, feeling tired all the time, feeling like I need to lie down whenever I sit up, stand up or walk, low blood pressure with the fatigue, breathless fatigue, non-refreshing sleep, all day tired but not quite sleepy, narcotic-like naps, drenching sweats when napping or sleeping at night, disturbing and violent dreams.
  • Bartonella: INSOMNIA, restlessness, inability to settle down, overwhelmed and overactive mind, tired but wakeful, irritability from not sleeping, inability to nap even though exhausted, light sweats when sleeping at night, long periods of wakefulness at night, overheating when sleeping at night or napping, long dreams about unsolvable problems.

I think you get the picture. Now when I talk to people with Lyme Disease who are having insomnia, I tell them to look into Bartonella.

Previous Experience with Insomnia

Meanwhile, I have my own set of plans that I implement when I can’t sleep. These come from the recent (past 6 years) bouts of insomnia, from a period of about 3-4 months in high school when I couldn’t sleep and from 3 months of not being able to sleep in my early 20s.

In high school I didn’t know why I couldn’t sleep. I did a lot of extra reading for school, usually after my family went to bed for the night. I did great that semester. I slept on the train to and from school. I had a whole host of other physical problems that semester, including loss of appetite and weight, and menstrual problems. I didn’t take any sleep medicines or drugs because I refused to acknowledge that I was struggling. (I think that it was a Bartonella flare due to other stressors in my life reducing my immune system functioning.)

In my early twenties, I was on an anxiety medication (to treat anxiety caused by the antidepressant I was taking, but that’s a tangent for another post) at too high a dose for too long. I realized that clonazepam was the source of my insomnia, but my psychiatrist was too nervous to help me come off it. (Who had the anxiety issue, really?) So I found a very dangerous but effective way to prevent anyone from prescribing it to me again. Plus, I got to sleep for quite a while as a result. (Overdosing caused temporary blindness and was way more dangerous than I knew at the time, but the internet didn’t have that kind of information just yet.)

The upshot of the clonazepam disaster is that I have a bias against taking drugs or herbs that are supposed to help me sleep. I have tried one thing this time around: a homeopathic remedy that doesn’t help a person fall asleep, but keeps a person asleep once they fall asleep on their own. I hated it. I felt groggy for several hours after I woke up on the few occasions I tried it.

There are two other reason I avoid pharmaceutical and herbal sleep aids. First, they add to the toxin load that my kidneys and liver have to process. Since I’m all about keeping the detox pathways clear and dedicated to cleaning up herxes, I avoid anything that adds work for my kidneys and liver. The second thing is that they interrupt the natural sleep pattern, making it harder to fall asleep once I decide to stop using them. In fact, it is much harder to monitor the frequency of insomnia when I take something for sleep because I can’t fall asleep without the drug/herb whether or not the Bartonella is active. So I deal with the insomnia when it comes and find ways to encourage my body to sleep.

Insomnia Dos and Don’ts

First is my list of things to avoid because they interrupt my brain’s ability to determine when I should sleep and my brain’s ability to make sleep happen.

Avoid

  1. Sleep drugs and herbs.
  2. Alcohol.
  3. Caffeine.
  4. Sugar.

Sugar is on the list because it causes spikes of insulin, one of the top level hormones that controls the rest of them. So insulin doesn’t by itself make us sleep or not sleep, but it sets in motion a cascade of other hormones that regulate sleep. Therefore I avoid sugar in part because it messes with sleep.

Then there is a more detailed list of things I do when I can’t sleep. Some of these things help me fall asleep. Some help me cope with the lack of sleep.

  1. I don’t worry or get preoccupied with how much sleep I get.
    When I worry about whether I can fall asleep, I’m too busy worrying to actually sleep. This is true whether I worry in bed or during the day. I assume that my body has some mechanism to allow me to sleep as soon as my brain is ready. I just have to wait and eventually I will fall asleep again.
  2. I rest at night.
    In other words, if I can’t sleep, I stay in bed and rest. I don’t get up to occupy myself, although I sometimes read in bed to get my eyes to tire out. It’s works best if I pick something boring to read. If that doesn’t work, I close my eyes anyway and rest. I intentionally put attention on relaxing my body and getting comfortable. Then I stay still and let the hours pass.
  3. I think about benign things.
    If my mind won’t shut down, I put attention on things that don’t get me worked up. For example, one night I tried to remember the names of all the Harry Potter books. Once I figured out all seven and put them in order, I convinced myself it was time to sleep, and I slept. Other times, I’ll remember in detail a fun or funny event from my past. Or I’ll tell myself the story of a favorite book or movie. Or I’ll try to think of pirate jokes. The point is that each of these things can go on for as long as I need them to, but they are emotionally relaxing rather than energizing.
  4. I force myself to yawn.
    This technique makes my body relax. Sometimes it even makes me relax enough to sleep. But if I don’t fall asleep, at least I’m not tense. I’ll pick a number between 5 and 15 and make myself yawn that many times. Usually after a few forced yawns, I find I can’t stop yawning until I’m pretty relaxed.
  5. I call a friend and ask for good news.
    This worked better when I lived on the East Coast and could call friends in San Francisco. I would tell whomever I called that I couldn’t sleep and would prefer if they could tell me something nice from their day, a funny story about their cats or their work or whatever. After a few times, my friends knew that it would be a short conversation (5-10 minutes) that they enjoyed. Then if I couldn’t sleep when I hung up, I at least felt connected (not lonely) and had something benign to think about.
  6. I rest or nap during the day.
    I firmly believe that the tick-borne infections mess up my hormones and get my adrenal glands to be active at the wrong times. Often a midday nap of 2-3 hours resets my hormones enough to slow me down and allow me to sleep the following night.
  7. I take it easy during the day.
    I think my hormones get geared up for more activity than my body actually needs to do. When I push it I get both overtired and over-activated. So I take it slow during the day, no big physical tasks, no major exercise, no tackling big mental or emotional challenges. With luck, I convince my body that it is okay to rest and sleep by the time night comes along.
  8. I take a sea salt bath before bed.
    This is one of my detox techniques which has the added benefit of relaxing my muscles. After 15-20 minutes in a hot tub, I feel sleepy. Sometimes I feel too sleepy to rinse off (but I do it anyway). Then, even if I don’t stay asleep the whole night, I get some sleep in the first part of the night.
  9. I rest on the BioMat.
    The BioMat is an expensive proposition, but turned out to be a valuable investment. I put it on one of the low settings and it heats me up. It takes a while, but I usually fall asleep within 30-45 minutes of being on it. Often I don’t move to it until I’ve been lying awake for over 2 hours, so 30 minutes more seems reasonable.
  10. I cuddle up with my husband.
    It is amazing what human contact can do. Sometimes it is subtle, like putting my hand on his back while he sleeps (and I lay there wide awake). Or he lays his hand on my forehead and dozes off, then I follow shortly after. (We call this the Vulcan death grip.) Or sometimes we actually cuddle and laugh and get off the day’s tension until I suddenly pass out. Prior to getting married, I found it helpful to ask my mother to come by and rub my shoulders or sit with me on the couch. Or I would ask a friend over and drop my legs in her lap as I stretched out on the couch. Human contact is soothing.
  11. I use the acupuncture sleep points.
    While I was in NYC, my acupuncturist would put a needle in the sleep points behind my ears. Now, I sometimes use a sticker with a metal ball in it to stimulate the point. I do this during the day to sleep at night.
  12. I coil for Lyme.
    Since I’ve discovered that Bartonella herxes give me insomnia and Lyme herxes makes me sleep a lot, I coil for Lyme to combat the Bartonella herxes. It only works for one night at a time, but I figure I might as well treat both illnesses to let them cancel out each others symptoms. For this to work, I need to coil my head and spine for Lyme.

I love this list. Unfortunately, I can’t always remember right away what to do when I’m lying there at night. After the second night of not sleeping, I can barely think straight. But I always come back to these 12 ideas. Now I can print them out and remember them more easily.

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Leaping into Bartonella Treatment

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

With each infection I confront, I make a leap at some point, from treating it a little, whittling down the infection, to slamming it. Today is the day for Bartonella.

I decided it is time. Over the past few days, I started adding in other sessions to clean my blood stream of active Bartonella. Rather than making the herxes more intense, it has actually reduced them. This is a relief. I think I’m at the point where waiting a full 24 hours between treatments allows the Bartonella to grow back. Now my goal is to kill it faster than it can reproduce.

Coiling Record

Over the past several posts, I’ve been explaining how I’ve ramped up the coiling, usually repeating the same treatment for a few days before increasing. Since the last post, here’s what I’ve done.

  • February 2 – morning full body coiling, midday spleen 10 minutes
  • February 3 – morning full body coiling, evening liver 10 minutes
  • February 4 – morning full body coiling, midday chest/heart 10 minutes, evening spleen 10 minutes

Today I transitioned to coiling my full body twice a day, plus doing my spleen in the middle of the day. This time, I’m using the protocol I described in the Bartonella coiling plan for morning and evening. I’m doing my best to space the morning and evening sessions to be about 12 hours apart.

Broken Thermostat

Since I started working on Bartonella, my body temperature regulation has been off. My hands and feet turn to icicles multiple times a day. I feel like there is a chill. Then at night I wake up totally overheated.

Last night I had the brilliant idea of taking my temperature when I woke up during the night. I did wake up, but I wasn’t hot. I took my temperature anyway and discovered that the battery in the thermometer needs to be changed. Oh well. I’ll try again.

The lack of overheating episode last night was what gave me the courage to make the leap today. I’m still feeling restless and having lots of trouble with sleep (falling and staying asleep) and dreams. My digestion is a bit off, but I’m not as bloated as I was. I think I’ve caught up to the Bartonella cycle. I think the juicing allowed my body to process all the Bartonella die-off debris quickly without making me feel so bad.

Lyme Sucks

Meanwhile, the Lyme infection is getting more active. My joints are popping and creaking. I’m getting tired. (Tired, restless and unable to sleep…what a combo!) I’m cranky from the pain.

Although in past seasons I’ve only coiled for Lyme once a week and generally spread it out over 2-5 days, I’ve changed it up this time. Partly, I could tell this past autumn that every 5 days was a better frequency so that the symptoms of borrelia activity didn’t make my life worse and generate bigger herxes. This time, I’ve been bold enough to coil my entire body in one day, which I did yesterday. The herxes aren’t as bad as they used to be, but they still hit me hard.

Today I’m suffering more than usual. The right half of my body hurts pretty badly. I’ve got joint pains bilaterally in every joint. I have a pretty intense headache that has been coming and going and coming back over and over all day. I’m not really into this. Tonight is a good night for diatomaceous earth. I also forced myself to lie on the biomat for two hours and do yoga for a half hour to try to bolster my circulation.

I’m in the fight.

Lyme Coiling Protocol (432 Hz, 81 minutes total)

  • Head: each side, top, back, 3 minutes per
  • Spine: upper, middle, 3 minutes per, lower 5 minutes
  • Each shoulder front, each shoulder blade, 2 minutes per
  • Each ilium front, each ilium back, each hip/outer thigh, 3 minutes per
  • Between legs: thighs, knees, calves, 3 minutes per
  • Butt, feet through coil, 3 minutes per
  • Chest, each side of ribcage+adjacent arm, 3 minutes per
  • Lower abdomen 3 minutes, upper abdomen 5 minutes

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Understanding Heat

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Sauna

Over the past few weeks, I’ve been going to the dry sauna less frequently. The reason for the decrease is diarrhea and a desire not to increase the risk of dehydration. But something else has happened in the time that I’ve been going to the sauna less often: my Lyme symptoms and herxes have gotten more intense. Even the nightsweats from Babesia coiling are getting more frequent (2 per night) and more wet.

There are several possible explantations for the increase in herxing:

  1. The bouts of diarrhea have suppressed my immune system, causing the Lyme infection to become more active.
  2. By going to the sauna less and sweating less, toxins are building up faster than I’m detoxifying.
  3. My previous trips to the sauna raised my body temperature enough to suppress the Lyme infection and once I stopped, it became active again.

If the first possibility is true, there isn’t much I can do. I just have to do my best to wait out the flare and keep coiling.

If the second possibility is true, then I can increase my other detox activities while I’m not going to the sauna, or I can hurry back to the sauna.

If the third possibility is true, then I should reduce either the frequency or the length of my sauna visits. This last one is important because I need to let the Lyme bacteria be active in order to kill them. The coil machine doesn’t work on the dormant cyst form of the bacteria.

The most conservative way to deal with the three possibilities is to keep my sauna visits to a lower level than before to prevent the chance that I’m putting the bacteria in cyst form. Meanwhile, I need to do more detoxing to get the symptoms under control.

No Regrets

Despite the fact that I’m now learning I may have prolonged my Lyme flare season by too many visits to the sauna, I have no regrets. I was using all the information I had at my disposal to decide how often I should go. The overriding factor at the time was clearing out the Bartonella herxes. The only way I could reduce the resulting kidney pain to a manageable level was to sit in the sauna for twenty minutes, 2 out of 3 days.

Having gotten to the point where I can live with the kidney pain by reducing the infection load, or at least moderate it solely with hot baths and the biomat (heating pad), I can now go back to finishing the Lyme season with a bang.

Hot Baths

In the absence of regular trips to the gym and sauna, I’ve taken a few hot baths with epsom salts. I used to take them all the time, making the water so hot it was just bearable. I loved them, sweating away the aches and pains. Now I’ve gotten a little more moderate. The water is hot but not unbearable, and I stay in a little less than 20 minutes. I also add a lot more epsom salt than I used to. Now that I’m writing, I realize I need to restock the Dead Sea Salts that made the bath even more bone-warming and joint relaxing.

How much heat?

Like many other questions with Lyme Disease, there is no simple, clear, one-size-fits-all rule of thumb. I do my best to listen to my body. Heat helps with some of the symptoms by assisting blood flow and detoxification. Baths, sauna and biomat also help me relax my muscles, reduce my pain, and even help me feel more refreshed. But too much heat can send all the infections into the dormant forms that can’t be eradicated. So I’m learning to listen to make sure I have symptoms rather than whether I’m use enough heat to get rid of symptoms.

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Toxicity and Transitions

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I’ve been in Watsonville, CA for exactly 4 weeks. I love it here. I love living with my partner. I love the town and the beach and the farmers market and the local gym with a dry sauna. It’s taking me a long time to settle in and find a routine. There turned out to be so many details involved in moving, and my activities are limited by how much energy I have.

As the days go by, I rest a lot and then run around and do what needs to be done to make the house  work for both of us. Joe does way more of the work than I do. Now that I live in a house with stairs, a lot more of my energy goes into moving from one room to another. I had no idea it would make as much of a difference as it has. I’m not complaining, though, because going up and down stairs is good for my bones.

We went to Yosemite for a brief respite from all the details of wedding planning and moving and house rearranging. It was a lovely trip (worthy of its own story), very low key and slow motion, yet I was exhausted when we returned. Really exhausted. It took a week for me to realize that I haven’t been detoxing enough since I moved here and that no amount of rest was going to resolve the fatigue.

In the meantime, all my symptoms have been increasing. Headaches. Joint aches. Back pain. Excess sensitivity in my legs (making me think there are insects trapped in my pantlegs). Crankiness. Digestive distress. Kidney pain. All sorts of things going wrong. The same conclusion: start detoxing again.

Over the weekend, I planted myself on the biomat for several hours each day. I started taking diatomaceous earth again. I started to make sure I’m drinking kombucha daily. I resolved to start going to the sauna again. By Monday, I was pepped up enough to get myself to the gym, get a membership, and sit in a sauna for 16 minutes. I sweated up a storm and started to feel better. I came home for a nap before I continued my day.

I went again today. I sat in the dry sauna for 20 minutes this time. Again, I sweated up a storm. Again I felt better.

If there is one thing I thought I’d have learned by now, it’s that the only way to stay on top of symptoms is to detox, detox, detox. No amount of coiling gets rid of the toxins. Coiling is necessary and it can make things better when followed by a good detox cycle. Coiling kills the infection, but the other half of healing is cleaning up the mess the infection and its demise leave behind.

So I’m tired again. I didn’t take my nap today. I’m catching up on the interminable list of details that moving requires. But I don’t ache as much. My intestines are less unhappy. My headache has diminished. There are symptoms still hanging around, but that’s to be expected.

Coiling

I’m still coiling weekly for Lyme. I do my full body in two days, most recently on Sunday and Monday. I temporarily reduced the rate of  Bartonella coiling because I wasn’t detoxing and the toxins were really bothering my kidneys (and making my urine a day-glow yellow and strong smelling). I did the shortened Bartonella program (16 minutes) on Sunday. Now that I’m back to sweating, I’ll do it again tonight and see what happens.

Bartonella

  • each side of head, 1 minute
  • top of head, 1 minute
  • back of head, 2 minutes
  • each shoulder, 1 minute
  • chest, 2 minutes
  • abdomen, 5 minutes
  • upper back, 2 minutes

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Subways

Monday, January 9, 2012

Now that I’m more mobile, as in I can walk a reasonable distance and still participate in the activity at the other end, I’m thinking about public transportation. Mostly, if I couldn’t walk somewhere during the past almost 5 years, my mother drove me. Lately, I’ve been able to drive myself around. But parking in NYC is no picnic.

Back when I first got sick (but tried to convince myself I was okay) I took the subway twice. Both times, I had chest constriction, trouble breathing, weakness in my legs, lightheadedness. It seemed like a panic attack, only I wasn’t afraid of the subway at all. I’d been taking for years when I was in high school and for a year and a half since I moved back to NYC. It was very strange.

Last year while on the Rocephin, I tried two more times to take the subway. Same set of problems. Only the leg weakness started first, followed by trouble breathing, then cardiac symptoms, a headache, lightheadedness and fatigue. I had no idea why. Both times, I was exhausted for the rest of the day.

One of the other Lyme patients I spoke to said he had to give up the subway since he got sick. That’s a bummer for anyone who lives in Manhattan, Queens or Brooklyn. He thought it might be the electromagnetic fields in the subway or the poor air quality: stale, full of steel dust and in many places moldy. I’m not sure which, but I stayed out of the subway.

The first week in January, I decided to test it again. This time, I got a ride to Manhattan and afterwards took the train back. I still had mild compression in my chest, but otherwise it wasn’t terrible. I won’t plan on doing it again for a while. Why trigger cardiac symptoms?

Coiling

  • Babesia, back of legs, 3 positions: butt+heels, calves+thighs, back of knees, 1 minute each location; back of ilium, 1 minute each side; 3 sections of spine, 1 minute each; shoulder blades, 1 minute each side; back of head, 1minute; top of head, 1 minute; liver, 10 minutes
  • Babesia, spleen, 10 minutes
  • Babesia, top of feet & ankle, 1 minute; shins together, 1 minute; knees together, 1 minute; front of thighs together, 1 minute; front of ilium, 1 minute each side; sides of ribs, 1 minute each side; front of shoulders, 1 minute each; sides of head, 1 minute each; chest, 10 minutes
  • Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes; chest, 2 minutes
  • Bartonella, abdomen, 5 minutes; chest 2 minutes

Detox

Today marked the return of the BioMat. Autumn was too warm. Then I was away for December. We were happy to reunite this afternoon. It was the perfect location for a post-yoga nap.

  • skin brushing
  • foot soak in epsom salt
  • yoga
  • biomat (1 hour, level 2)

Body

I’m doing remarkably well. All my complaints are minor. A headache that comes and goes. Floaters in my vision. Crunching in my shoulders. Fleeting joint pain.

I had a great time doing yoga today. I was able to do almost every pose. I pushed myself and was still able to walk home the long way. Granted I fell asleep as soon as I had lunch and was groggy for several hours after. In fact, my physical activity was done for the day once I got home. But no matter, I was happy to be active.

The yoga “work-out” gave me a picture of what I expect the next several months to be like. Exercise a few days a week where that is my sole activity for the day followed by tons of rest.

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Regular Menstrual Cramps

Sunday, October 2, 2011

I felt like a regular American woman today. My period came after two days of PMS cramps. The abdominal cramps were worse today than they usually are during the cycles when I’m not knocked out by my period. I napped on the BioMat. I used a hot water bottle on my abdomen.

I didn’t have much of an appetite most of the day, and my stomach was a little nauseated for several hours. But no diarrhea. No vomiting. No lying on the floor because I’m too weak to stand. No chills. No sweats. No blinding headache (just a minor one this evening).

It was regular, normal, not Lyme disease disastrous. What a relief.

I don’t take anything during my menstrual distress. I am wearing the acupressure balls on the shen men points in my ears. I’m not sure if they help, they certainly don’t hurt.

I’ve been tracking my cycles. This year has been pretty good. Not too many that knocked me out (maybe 3 out of 9 in 2011). And the ones that don’t knock me out are getting less intense, except for today’s cramps.

I’m hopeful tonight about having a healthy body through and through.

Coiling

  • Babesia, ilium, 1 minute each side; knees/elbows, 1 minute; liver, 5 minutes; chest, 5 minutes; shoulder blades, 30 seconds each; shoulders, 30 seconds each; feet, 1 minute
  • Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes; chest, 2 minutes

Detox

  • skin brushing
  • fasting for part of the day with plenty of water
  • nap
  • BioMat (2 sessions of 1 hour each, level 2)

Body

Mostly mentioned above. No night sweat last night. I couldn’t settle down to sleep until 2:30am, even though I’d been in bed for hours. Insomnia often precedes the beginning of my menstrual cycle.

Cramps most of the day, hurting enough to slow me down significantly. No appetite until 5:30pm. Then I was pretty hungry.

My knees hurt a lot. My joints are starting to get sharp pains of medium intensity: shoulders, elbows, hips, wrists, knuckles.

My head hurts a little tonight, with special emphasis on my right eye.

My ears are still popping as the congestion from the interminable cold clears from my head.

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Catching up

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The wedding I went to on Sunday took place under a large L-shaped tent in a sloped upstate New York backyard. Rain poured down audibly and consistently all day. Everyone looked a little washed out, and the curly hair on many heads (including mine) was extra frizzy. The grass was wet under the tent. I had on a semi-formal dress, but never changed out of my Tevas.

This was my day out with my friend Margaux, a poet and performance artist whom I’ve known for over 25 years. Back then, our artwork came into being during Girl Scout meetings, usually involving too much glue or sparkles. We haven’t been dancing together in almost a decade, owing first to my overwork patterns back when I was an activist, and later to my disability. This was our chance to spend the day out, a big change from most of her visits in recent years when I was plastered to the couch, and to dance a little during the daytime when I’m able to be upright.

The wedding ceremony was a modern Jewish one, under a huppah, partly in English, partly in Hebrew. The language was beautiful. The couple was clearly a real partnership, in evidence that day and in the stories people told during the toasts. Mostly it was a secular party, with one Klezmer song after the traditional American dances between the bride and groom, then the bride and her father. That was the first bit I danced. In fact, when the big circle dance started to break down as the bridal party formed a smaller circle in the middle, I got the outer circle moving again. It’s easier for me to walk (or dance) than it is to stand still for any length of time. If I’m out, I’d like to be having fun.

Margaux and Rose resting between dances

Margaux and I made a pact to talk to some new people. We ended up talking to two couples who had children with them at the wedding. Both seemed to relish parenthood and take joy in interacting with their children. I sat down at a table or two near the dance floor, each time I got too tired to stand. When people asked if I was a friend of the bride or the groom, I would say, I haven’t met them. After letting the information register in the other guests’ faces, I would say I was the “plus one” of a friend of the bride. I didn’t realize it would be so funny. In response, people were eager to tell me what they loved about the person in the couple whom they knew.

We sat at a table with 8 people from New Jersey. They were bemoaning the fact that pop culture has been pretty down on Jersey and on Italians, with the two hugely popular tv shows, The Sopranos and Jersey Shore, neither of which I’ve ever seen. In the grand scheme of things, it was pretty interesting conversation for strangers who meet at weddings.

My favorite toast was from the father of the groom, which he delivered while choking down his tears.

I have a wonderful family. I have a son and daughter who I love. My wife is my partner, the base of my life. I’m very happy. I’m lucky to have them. That is all I can wish for you, Will.

I never spoke to Will. I did meet Audrey, the bride, on the dance floor. She remembered my name and thanked me for dancing. I told her that’s what I came for…and that I wished her a happy marriage. I certainly didn’t come for the food. It looked and smelled very appealing, but I couldn’t eat anything other than shrimp with no sauce. That’s life as a “plus one” with food allergies.

Margaux and I got to dance a little. It wasn’t much. Just about what I could handle. And we had a blast. We danced like people who have a long history and are comfortable hanging out to a rhythm. We went to junior high and high school dances together, usually as part of a group of people who didn’t care if they had dates. We’ve gone dancing a few times as adults. On Sunday, dancing with Margaux, I felt like I got to be me again. The me of the decades before Lyme and hopefully of the decades to come.

In the car there and back, I got to catch up with Margaux about our lives these days. The day as a whole, however, was a way for me to catch up with my hopes for myself and to relish a lifelong friendship.

Coiling

I spaced out and forgot to coil early in the day. So I had to make due with one session in which I tried not to burn out the coil. There was no legitimate reason for coiling less than usual.

  • Babesia, liver, 5 minutes; chest, 5 minutes
  • Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes

Detox

It was cold this morning, so I got out the BioMat. What a relief. Not only did I warm up, but I had a good sweat, too.

  • skin brushing
  • lemon water
  • BioMat (90 minutes, level 3)

Body

I’m pretty wiped out. I slept through the night with no sweats, but it took a long time to fall asleep. When I got into bed last night, my sacrum had pain radiating out of it down my right leg. The muscles surrounding my lumbar spine were in spasm. So I went to my couch/daybed, which is firmer than my bed, and did some yoga poses (half saddle) that relax my lower spine. They helped, but it took over a half hour of stretching to get the pain to a manageable level.

Today, I’ve had continued lower back pain. Along with the general irritation in my lower core, I’ve had serious urinary hesitation, and diarrhea on and off all day. My hypothesis is that the homeopathic remedy is doing it’s next stage of clearing out debris.

Over the past week of loose stools and diarrhea, I think I’ve lost weight. My spine bones feel tender, like they’re poking through the skin. (I’ve been calling myself a stegosaurus.)

I’m dealing with a lot of headaches and light sensitivity. I almost couldn’t handle the natural light in my apartment today. I’ve been trying to figure out when this last happened. I think it was when I was on Rocephin and the year before that on Minocin. Both of those cross the blood brain barrier and kill Lyme bacteria in the cerebrospinal fluid. This summer I’ve been getting these migraine-like headaches since I reached 5 minutes of coiling on my spine. I wonder if this is causal or coincidental.

Other random symptoms today: hoarse voice this morning, itchy eyes tonight, itchy rash on my sternum, muscle pain in my arms (appropriate to the poses I did in yoga yesterday).

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