healing process

  • Overcommitted

    It is a common pattern in healing from a long term illness: as soon as you feel a little better, you want to do everything, until you’ve done too much, and you’re flat on your back again. That basically describes… Continue reading

  • Slippery Hope

    I’m about a week into using the Alfons Ven protocol. It has been a roller coaster in so many ways. Some days, I’m more symptomatic than I’ve been in months, days that feel like the worst of the autumn relapse.… Continue reading

  • Pills and Potions

    The thing I loved most about coiling was that it got rid of most of the pills and potions I had to take to deal with being sick. Now that I’m on the Alfons Ven program, I’m back to timing… Continue reading

  • Flux and FLUOX

    I’ve been feeling very urgent since the weekend. I’m so tired of coiling. I just wanted to stop. I forced myself to continue until today, when the Alfons Ven Lyme Package arrived. Technically, this blog is going to switch to… Continue reading

  • Lyme Ideology

    I am in a moment of transition. I promised myself that I would only use the coil machine for five years. It wasn’t a random number. Someone told me that I’d be “better,” as in “free of tick-borne infections” if… Continue reading

  • Long Term Consequences

    Last week, I donated blood to a research study. Despite all my frustrations with antibiotics and traditional medicine, I want to participate in finding a cure for chronic Lyme Disease and other tick-borne infections. The study is at Stanford University,… Continue reading

  • Measures of progress

    I’ve just returned from a trip to visit my family in Williamsburg, Virginia. I had a fun and fabulous time. Despite some physical challenges, I was able to participate in almost all the activities. I used what I have learned… Continue reading

  • Toxicity and Temptation

    Right after I made a renewed commitment to focusing on Bartonella, coiling for it several times a day everyday, a friend called me to tell me about Alfons Ven and his Lyme remedies. It sounded so incredible. When I hear… Continue reading

  • Out of the Fog

    For the past two weeks, I’ve been playing a learn-to-speak-Spanish cd in the car when I drive. With each full repetition of the cd, I can hear and understand additional phrases. They didn’t help when my friends mother came to… Continue reading

  • Back to Basics

    In my last blog, I talked about viruses. It was part of a side trip I took on my journey towards wellness. Although I sometimes think I have another infection, or several, that contributes to my symptoms, I learned once… Continue reading