I haven’t driven in 4 years, starting when I suddenly lost control of my legs and could no longer walk. It’s only over the past few months that I have been close to well enough to drive on my good days.
My first foray into the driver’s seat was the day my dad went to the hospital, shortly after he got in an ambulance. No stress there. Fortunately, I only had to drive from the mechanic to the garage where my parents rent a spot. And only one hair raising traffic situation.
The second time was today. My mom is out of town visiting my new nephew. (I’m so jealous!) I went to spend a few hours with my dad in rehab. The ride there was smooth.
The way back was exactly the kind of situation that I didn’t want to get into the first few times on the road. While I was with him enjoying dinner and watching part of the first Harry Potter movie, it snowed then rained then hailed. The sun set. So I got to drive in an inch of slush at night while it was hailing. No stress there.
The title of the post comes from a song by They Might Be Giants, a band I listened to back in high school. You can listen it it here with the same quality that I used to on my walkman or cassette player. It has a great line that describes my life this month: “If I were at home, they’d find me there.”
The moral of the story is that I’m driving again. I’ll need time to work up to a road trip, but I’ve taken a major step in getting my life back.
Today was a purely Candida day. I have enough toxins running around my body to clean up without adding more.
- Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes
Today was my weekly yoga class (usually I go on Mondays). It was a different instructor. She likes to go after a variety of poses that aren’t in the beginner-intermediate repertoire. Today she guided many members of the class to try crane pose. It’s a pose that can easily cause injury if a person isn’t extremely strong in several key places. It also puts a lot of pressure on the joints in the arms: wrists, elbows and shoulders.
She started pushing me to do it. When I said I can’t because of my shoulders, she said, “This is how you build strength.” I replied in the negative, explaining that I have problems in my joint that go beyond weakness. Before I left, she apologized for pushing me. I reminded her that I have Lyme disease and that I’m coming to these classes to start to rebuild my strength and stamina, not to test it or cause myself injuries. She answered that I do the poses so well that she forgets that I have limitations. I thanked her for the compliment and left it at that. I really don’t show how much pain I’m in all the time.
Having said all this, I can tell that my calves are getting stronger. I have somewhat more stamina than before, even compared to last week. I can’t do all the vinyasas, but I don’t expect to be able to do that for quite a while. I also noticed that I am able to be more gentle with myself and go at a slower pace than the class, easing into the first half of a pose and not worrying about whether I do the whole thing.
(A reminder to new readers: exercise is an important component of detoxing for a whole host of reasons, one of which is that it helps move lymph through the lymphatic system during muscle contractions. Yoga has added benefits of detoxification through the breathing exercises and the twisting poses which massage and energize the internal organs.)
- homeopathic support
- juiced greens
- skin brushing
- BioMat (90 minutes on setting 4, split in two sessions)
- castor oil pack on liver
With this kind of weather, I just want to stay in bed. I’m very achy, especially my lower back. All my joints ache. My head aches. My eyes hurt. My shoulders ache and pop and crack. My upper back aches. I could have spent the day on the BioMat if I had nothing else to do.
Last night, I had a big night sweat. I stayed overheated and slept for several hours without blankets, until I woke up very cold and achy. I slept about 7.5 hours last night, not really enough, but insufficient sleep is part of the Lyme Herx. I woke up in a daze, with itchy, swollen eyelids, a headache and severe pain in my feet (plus all the body aches). It took a long time to come to full consciousness. Meanwhile, the rest of the day, I couldn’t focus. I burned my cabbage. I kept grabbing the wrong things when I was cooking. I had a hard time deciding what to do next. I couldn’t get my act together to leave the house. My brain wasn’t working at full capacity.
My knees had pretty sharp pain. The left one kept making a loud cracking noise during yoga. And my hands, well, they hurt all over, not just in my fingers.
In addition to pain, my stomach is unhappy. I can’t tell if I’m hungry or if my stomach is upset. Both are possible. I’m afraid I never eat enough calories. My sweet tooth was raging this evening (maybe from the no-stress driving or maybe from the candida detox). I just wanted more and more food. Of course my stomach could be upset from the Herx or from detoxing Bartonella or I could be on the verge of an ulcer. Tomorrow I’ll be treating it with a bit of glutamine in my morning shake. That regenerates the stomach lining so I’ll be able to determine if I need to eat more or if I need to be kind to my stomach.
Now I will try to rest. Maybe I can sleep longer tonight.