Yesterday, after resting a while, I realized that I absolutely had to do laundry. I was craving a bath, but convinced myself that laundry and a short walk in the neighborhood would not only allow me to accomplish the few things that could no longer be postponed, but give me a bit of fresh air and exercise. That’s what I did.
Maybe I overdid it physically, based on how tired I’ve been since then, but it really cheered me up. Pain is depressing. There’s no way around the fact that it pulls at my attention making it hard for me to concentrate or enjoy anything. Walking around outside perked me up and pushed back the difficulty of hurting in so many different body parts all at once.
The other thing that cheered me up was a phone call from a friend from high school who read this blog. Wow! I believe somehow that as I put myself out in the world, people will reach back. This is great.
I can tell I’m not resting enough. Last night it was hard to fall asleep because I was overtired. I was dealing with a headache and body pains (all my joints, especially in my hands and feet, a lot of the muscles all in a variety of inconvenient locations, and terrible pain in my central and lower back), a milder vibration in the middle finger of my right hand, and a sense of discomfort that is different from pain.
I woke up this morning with the same set of pains, only way more intense. Plus, my heart has been pounding so hard all day. I had a new recollection of a previous experience of Herx reactions. As they build but don’t clean out, the pain shifts from headaches and such to a meteoric rise in all the rest of my symptoms. The only solution is DETOX, DETOX, DETOX!
My fabulous doctor knew this in the spring and summer of 2009 and fought with me for six months to get me to do colonics (aka colon hydrotherapy in more exclusive circles). They were miraculous. After I started them, I stopped using a cane (even if I still didn’t walk quite right). I’m thinking about going for one in the next two weeks, as soon as my and my mother’s schedules permit for a trip to Manhattan.
Meanwhile, I thought about detoxing seriously today. I took a hot bath with Dead Sea salts and Epsom salts. I felt better during and for about 30 minutes after. I ate 1/4 of a head of cabbage. And I started two homeopathic remedies, one that helps drain the lymphatic system, and one that cleans the spleen. Between meals and the accompanying pills, I took a bile binding drug with a snack. Unfortunately, I still have a headache, back pain and my hands are getting too tired to type.
One last thing: I coiled today for 5 minutes on the Candida setting. For the first time, I felt something afterward–the strange pressure in my chest. Maybe it was from coiling at that frequency, or maybe it was the weight of the coil on my abdomen for five minutes on a day when my heart was already feeling strained.