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Seeing through the third eye

Monday, March 28, 2011

My current favorite yoga instructor has a problem with his left eye. It’s visible to people who see him that there’s a problem. The first time I met him, he asked if there was anything he needed to know about (injuries, etc.) before the class started. I told him about the Lyme disease and the joint problems, weak muscles, and low blood pressure. I tried to give him a short list.

Anyway, I wanted to ask about his eye. It seemed fair. Only, his eye doesn’t impact his ability to teach yoga. Or maybe it does. He is hyper-aware of what’s going on in the class. I can’t tell if he’s reading minds (sometimes lots of experience lets teachers have a good guess of where people might struggle), if he sees cues, or if he feels the pulse of the room.

In today’s yoga class, as usual, I put a folded blanket under my knees for cat and cow and related poses. I find it excruciating to lean on my knee caps directly on the floor. When it seemed to me that we were moving on to other poses, I pushed it away. He was there immediately, telling me he would let me know when we were done with our knees. He even put it back part way for me.

I’ve been to a few of his classes. I go to the shorter lunchtime class because a full class is too much for me. Each time, I grow more accustomed to his left eye. Each time, I become more convinced that he has developed his third eye more than most people.

I spent the rest of the day thinking about the third eye, and the concept of seeing what is not quite visible and understanding it as intuition. I wonder what guides me in my decisions of what to coil and when. Some of it is logic. Some of it is guessing. Sometimes, I feel convinced that I should do something, even if it is not quite the most logical choice. (And let’s be honest, sometimes it’s a mistake, but usually one that I learn something important from.)

For example, last night, I decided to do Babesia, even though I had two other equally good options. Not only that, but I went for a full minute, increasing by 30 seconds rather than 15 seconds. I’m not sure why. It just felt right.

My tests and trials with the coil and with everything else I’m trying kind of work the same way: not quite determined by objective observations alone, although they carry a lot weight in my decisions. But there’s no other way to go, no manual of how to cure Lyme disease, no reference to base my guesses on.

At least, not yet.

Coiling

Although I’m concerned about doing Babesia 3 nights in a row, I’m going for it. Tonight is a Bartonella & Babesia night. I’m planning on doing Lyme tomorrow unless I feel as bad as I do tonight.

  • Bartonella, abdomen, 4 minutes 15 seconds
  • Babesia, chest, 1 minute
  • Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes

Coiling for Babesia tonight, I had a very mild chest constriction and no lump in my throat. Only my existing headache got noticeably worse.

Detox

It was a good idea to skip the psyllium last night. My bowels were feeling better this morning. My abdomen is still swollen, though slightly less than last night.

I was kind of spacey this morning. I completely forgot to use the skin brush. I think the Babesia endotoxins went straight to my brain.

I juiced again today. I use a Breville BJE200XL juicing machine. The way it’s designed, there is a possibility of splashing or the cup moving away from the juice spout when the machine is on and vibrating. The receiving cup has a lid that fits just under the spout, but the vibrations can push it away the whole setup, sending precious juice all over the place. Today I came up with a solution. I put a folded kitchen towel under the cup that lifted it maybe 1/8 inch. That was enough to hook the spout into the cover, and voila, no more splashing or spills.

  • homeopathic support
  • kombucha
  • juiced greens
  • lemon water
  • BioMat/infrared heat (4 hours asleep on level 1, 1 hour this morning on level 3)
  • castor oil pack on liver

The BioMat can get me to start sweating on level 3 when I’m covered with a folded sheet and a cotton blanket. That had to do since I didn’t have time for a bath this morning. (I was laying there because I didn’t have the energy to get up and do anything, including cleaning the tub.) It also relaxed my back muscles, which was great even if the pain didn’t go away.

Body

One minute treating Babesia definitely triggered a Herx (or for sticklers about what qualifies as a Herx, a detox reaction). In addition to the immediate symptoms: headache, chest constriction and throat lump enlargement, I had a humongous night sweat at about 4:30am. It was a drencher, front and back of the whole shirt was wet. Gross, I know, and a dramatic way to wake up.

This morning, I was scatterbrained and in pain. My back was the worst of it. All over, up and down. Meanwhile, I kept doing things in the wrong order or the wrong way. I made breakfast and almost ate it before I took my homeopathic drops (that one should take on an empty stomach). I forgot to do the skin brushing until I was already in the shower.  I was so mixed up.

I went to the yoga class even with the back pain, figuring that it was just as likely that I feel better as worse after it was over. My back did feel better after the class. But my thighs hurt, my left shoulder was out of joint (almost literally) and making tons of noise in addition to being rather uncomfortable, and I got an energy headache after class. This is a particular kind of headache that I used to get when I started doing acupuncture again when I went down for the count with these illnesses.

Energy headaches happen when stuck energy suddenly gets free and shoots up. My acupuncturist would warn me. Back then the headaches lasted a few hours and I ended up sleeping them off. I wouldn’t have minded a nap today, but I had too much to do. I know I’m going to crash in the next few days because I’m not resting enough. But that’s beside the point. The yoga class shook loose something and it went straight to my head.

The good thing was that my focus was better after class, even with the headache. So I didn’t screw up the juicing or the cooking. The headache only lasted an hour or so.

Then at 6pm, I got my Herx headache. How did I know the difference? This headache came on with bright afternoon light and lots of floaters in my vision. I’ve had the headache with vision problems for the past 5 hours. I wish I could close my eyes and use my third eye exclusively.

The rest of my symptoms are returned back pain, eye pain, jaw popping on the left, ear/jaw pain on the right, pain in my upper spine and neck, left shoulder popping painfully, hand pain (mostly joints), left hip/upper thigh pain radiating down, right thigh and hip weakness and pain, bilateral knee pain, very dry skin, swollen abdomen, strong unquenchable thirst, extra typing mistakes and some grumpiness.

I can’t wait to fall asleep on the BioMat…

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