I’m starting my post late tonight. I’m pretty tired and my body is a wreck. But that isn’t what the day has been about.
All day, I’ve been noticing how much people care about me. It started with a phone call this morning that had me laughing and tearing up about Punky and about the stream of difficult things that have been happening over the past year. That first call reminded me that there are people in my life who want to share the rough times as well as the good times with me.
I got to chat with my sister for a few minutes before lunch and hear about my little nephew. She and I were joking about my health and the panic-generating symptoms I had this morning. (We laughed because they ended up resolving themselves. More about that below.)
A friend who no longer lives in NYC came by today since he was in town. For a few hours, we sat together and talked about everything, from random Star Trek trivia to how things are really going in our lives. We, too, were laughing a bunch together. (Except about Star Trek. That’s serious stuff!)
I had dinner with my parents. I was happy to see them. They’ve been angels since I got sick and have supported me in so many ways. A simple dinner (thanks Mom for the yummy broccoli rabe) and a pleasant conversation were another pick me up after saying good by to the friend who visited.
This evening, I called some of the people who knew my cats to tell them about Punky. Three of them called back and I had long conversations with them. It was like a big hug to be in touch with them all.
Then tonight, I spoke to a few other friends, just to check in about the day. I feel surrounded by friends and family who care about me. There are other friends who reached out to me as well whom I’ll have to call back. All this love is overwhelming in a wonderful way.
Tonight is a Bartonella night. Given how messy my body is, no increases today. Just keeping pace.
- Bartonella, abdomen, 5 minutes; chest, 2 minutes
- Babesia, chest, 4 minutes 30 seconds; liver, 4 minutes 30 seconds
- Candida, abdomen, 10 minutes
My body had its own detox going on today. Something is on its way out, probably the Lyme Herx, possibly also some of the others. I didn’t do anything to move it along, just the regular routine.
- juiced greens
- skin brushing
- castor oil pack on liver
- laughter & tears
My body is a hot mess. Literally. It started with a night sweat. Then this morning, I woke up cold. My upper back was in knots and aching terribly. My body was exhausted. So I lay on the BioMat for 40 minutes and warmed it up. The pain took quite a while to go away.
While eating breakfast, I stopped noticing the back pain. I felt a burning sensation laterally on both sides of my abdomen. I kind of freaked out. I prayed that it was bowel irritation. The last time I had that intensity of pain, it turned out to be a huge ovarian cyst that had burst in my abdomen. When I finally had a bowel movement (on the loose side), the pain moved. I stopped being panicked, but it still hurt for a few hours.
Next issue was the smelly stuff. I thought my friend was sweating something fierce. I thought to myself that sometimes men have putrid body odor. But I said nothing. When he left, I could still smell it. How odd…until I realized it was me! I changed my shirt. Later in the day, I had another smelly sweat attack. Lyme bacteria generate some seriously smelly toxins. Those were also released in my turkey-soup-scented urine. Then there is the gas attack tonight. Let’s not even try to describe that olfactory phenomenon. Too much strangeness with these Herxes.
Speaking of urine (who writes that?), I’m continuing to have urinary hesitation. I’m going to ask my doctor about that when I see him tomorrow. I’m sure I’ve asked him before, but I can’t remember what he told me last time.
Tonight, my joints are achy. I’ve been very fatigued and sleepy all evening. The only remedy is to lie down. Then I’m awake enough to answer the phone.
I’ve had a mild headache on and off since this afternoon. Some eye pain. Lots of ear pain. The pain in my upper back is returning.
I’m about ready to turn in.